Facing Forward

If I could lie in an exhausted heap on the floor across a splotch of warm sun, without the burdens of schoolwork…I would be so happy right now. A lot seems to be following me, not stuff I don’t like necessarily, but it’s all a little overwhelming. In a few minutes I will be leaving for a college overnight stay at Mills. My mom’s idea. I think it’s a good idea but I don’t know if right now is a good time. I don’t seem to have a lot of time to spare right now. Mr. Silva is going to rant tomorrow, and bless my hickens, gosh darnit, I don’t want to miss that. I think it’s going to be about writing a proper AP Lit essay. Important. I’m still a little sleepy from the night before last when I had a random beyond random day. Journeying to Blackhawk Mall all on my own and then getting unexpected visits and calls all around the same time. It was a very exciting day, I must say. I feel tired but I happily had a fulfilling weekend. Sometimes I just need to talk. Sometimes life surprises me. I am trying hard not to question things right now. I feel that in this moment in time I should just ride the wave and fumble through the haze going toward the voices of those who call out. I wonder if this Mills thing will go smoothly. I hope I find some nice people. Lately I haven’t been branching out, as I feel content with the people I’m with. I always think that I forget how to be with new people… but I suppose it’s like riding a bike.