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So it was kind of funny about the whole going to SF thing. I could have slept in, it's true, but instead we left to fly the highway. At the last minute my mom looked out across the road at the line of traffic stretching out over what seemed to be miles.
"We're not going," she announced.
And that was that. No enlightening college visit. No sleep either. In a way I was relieved, because I did not have to worry about finding my way around another foreign campus explaining to intimidating professors why I was interrupting their important lectures... but then again, I just went home and didn't have time to sleep, or do anything much. So I'm not sure what became of that morning. I think it just seeped away... or maybe it just wasn't meant to exist in the first place. Some mornings just do that. They want to keep us on our toes :)
Yay! Pun's back! Everyone is doing as many last minute rush around college trips as they can pull off in the time that we have left. Ju Ju gets back late tomorrow I think, and so might Goby-looby-dooblie? All I can wish everyone is that their trips make something happen. Like a little light switch. Even a tiny one would be good. I know that didn't exactly happen to me yet, but at least my list is smaller now. Though, come to think of it... that narrowing of the list wasn't a result of my last ditch efforts to spy on colleges. It was more of a flick of the hand thing or a shaking of the head, like the dismissing of horror movie images before bed. I guess I just thought to my self, "Bard? Evergreen? UCSC? (and so on)... I have got to be kidding. No." I mean, I actually really liked Lewis and Clark, but I just don't think it's right. It's pretty, and perfect but... It's not here.
Mostly places are just too far away. I love it here. I love so many things here :) And it's really helped me to have lived in so many places. PA, up north in all those towns I can't remember the names to, SF, Tiberon (can't spell), and others... being so many other places I realize why where I am is so me. I think I belong here, at least for the moment, and it's really good to realize that. Nothing else is as good. I love it!
But I still have a problem. There are many places HERE, or close to here anyway, so now what?
Hat Time :) ?
"We're not going," she announced.
And that was that. No enlightening college visit. No sleep either. In a way I was relieved, because I did not have to worry about finding my way around another foreign campus explaining to intimidating professors why I was interrupting their important lectures... but then again, I just went home and didn't have time to sleep, or do anything much. So I'm not sure what became of that morning. I think it just seeped away... or maybe it just wasn't meant to exist in the first place. Some mornings just do that. They want to keep us on our toes :)
Yay! Pun's back! Everyone is doing as many last minute rush around college trips as they can pull off in the time that we have left. Ju Ju gets back late tomorrow I think, and so might Goby-looby-dooblie? All I can wish everyone is that their trips make something happen. Like a little light switch. Even a tiny one would be good. I know that didn't exactly happen to me yet, but at least my list is smaller now. Though, come to think of it... that narrowing of the list wasn't a result of my last ditch efforts to spy on colleges. It was more of a flick of the hand thing or a shaking of the head, like the dismissing of horror movie images before bed. I guess I just thought to my self, "Bard? Evergreen? UCSC? (and so on)... I have got to be kidding. No." I mean, I actually really liked Lewis and Clark, but I just don't think it's right. It's pretty, and perfect but... It's not here.
Mostly places are just too far away. I love it here. I love so many things here :) And it's really helped me to have lived in so many places. PA, up north in all those towns I can't remember the names to, SF, Tiberon (can't spell), and others... being so many other places I realize why where I am is so me. I think I belong here, at least for the moment, and it's really good to realize that. Nothing else is as good. I love it!
But I still have a problem. There are many places HERE, or close to here anyway, so now what?
Hat Time :) ?
posted by Integrity at 1:38 PM
7 Comments:
Following on our conversation tonight, this is my comment, letting you know that somebody is reading what you post. :D
And it's interesting, but the only people I know who are going here for college are the ones who haven't lived here all their lives. So maybe the rest of us will go far far away, only to realize what a good place we left behind. Maybe we're the silly ones. :S
Yay! Someone is reading! You should give yourself a name:)
Yeah, I think there is a lot to that actually. I think sometimes you really need to step back to see the big picture and whats really important about your life.
College is totally the best time to do that. It's only 4 or so years. If you wait to step back, you might go crazy and move to Alaska and sell all of your stuff and put your family up for adoption in an attempt to make a change. Then you are screwed:) So college is way better and it's only temporary, if you want it to be.
I would give myself a name, but I don't have an account and I'm dramatically lazy. Besides, you know who I am, so we're all good.
And yeah, the selling-house-and-moving-to-Alaska-without-the-family thing does sound a little extreme. Well, a lot extreme. College is much better, even though mine is also much colder. :)
Yeah, well mine will be foggy. You can’t have everything you want, I guess. But mine will also be new yet homey, which is what I was going for I think. Also yours will be cold, but only for part of the year, and then I’m guessing that it will be hot? I suppose NY will be hot. PA was, and they are both pretty near. OOOh and my school is right near the Ren faire in August 25 and 26. I remember the dates, and that is only a little sad. But it’s exciting! They have jousting! And then there is all that cool stuff like the love fair and stuff like that, which I never went to before because I couldn’t find my way around. But now I will learn the ropes… after the initial period of not knowing where the hell I am for a while. Hehe. Wow. But you get snow! That’s amazingly wonderful.
Also I’m pretty sure you can give yourself a name without making an account. You select Other I think.
See, this is me giving my self a name. Actually this is my real name. *creepy laugh*
I'm trying to figure out if I know psycho. Integrity, do I?
Anyways...I severely dislike it here. I'm going far away. Drexel, which is in Philly. Heh, a little synchronisity here? Anyways, that's not that far from NY, where some of my adoptive relatives and family friends live, and also NY is really cool and funness. Well, whatever.
It is I!!
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