Fascination

I think I reverted to my young self on Sunday with Juju/ Kiele/ (what should I call you now)?

It was so lovely, standing among all the little kids, feeling their excitement, hearing their chattering, watching them bubble over with emotions. We went to build-a-bear. I know, I know, it sounds lame… but it was really sweet. I remember back when I was young like that. Climbing trees with long tangled hair. I wore overalls and was always taken with the simplest things. I played in the creaks and would lovingly gather sticks to make a miniature teepee, or politely talk to squirrels. Despite what my mother said, I never got rabies, and more importantly I was happy doing these things.

So, standing there, getting ready to stuff and rather dead looking floppy bunny body, I realized how simple it could be to feel content. And I was—at that moment—thrilled to be there.

Gab and I just watched this movie called things to do. It was about this guy who witnessed a traumatic event, which led him to quit his mundane office job and go back to live in his hometown in the hopes of getting something more out of life. Popular theme. He ended up making a list of things he always wanted to do in high school but never got a chance to do, like sky diving, making a slam dunk, building a go cart, dressing up in hippie clothes and playing bongo drums on the street, going to prom, etc. Every day was different, and I think life should be lived more like that. Spur of the moment, out of the ordinary things mixed into life makes every day so much more interesting. I want to make a resolution, right now, to be spontaneous, genuine, and open so that I can keep my life from getting overpowered by college. I want to find people who are up for an unconventional style.

“Leave nothing unfinished, leave nothing unsaid.”