Just Crazy

I really want to try and have a positive outlook on all this change too. It really is stressful, but I am at least trying to look at the good stuff too. Like right now, it really is beautiful. I’m outside in the dark and there is this thick San Francisco fog drifting by. If I look up at night on a clear day I can see the clouds flowing by so fast in the sky. It looks almost like water, covered with foam that gets ushered along in the swift current. I also love the showers and how the water comes out of the ceiling. It just shoots straight down and covers you with endless steam and water. But that’s pretty much it. The social scene is NOT as wonderful as I had hoped. I thought everyone would be more open, but it seems like a collective of giggles and gossip. Not really my cup of tea. I’m a Taurus, so it takes me a while to get close to people, but when I do I love to be there with them. There are only 30 of us in the dorm, and I haven’t found anyone that I feel like getting close with. I went to dinner with a bunch of them, and it just wears me out. I just don’t feel that I’m like them. They are fine people but not for me. They all connect by complaining, by sharing annoyances they have with fellow students, and comparing their explanations about how lame the events are. I just don’t want to involve myself in that. It’s not me. I hope I can find people with similar dispositions in my classes, because I’m not finding it in my door unfortunately. Maybe I should have gone to a bigger school, not in a city. But then again, maybe I’m just crazy.